Disneyland - The Happiest Place on Earth

My Wife and I love Disneyland.

So much so we have annual passes.

They are the discounted 'Southern California' passes that have almost 200 days blocked out, but most of those days are in the summer and some Friday's & Saturday's when either we don't want to go due to the high attendance, the uncomfortable Anaheim heat or it just doesn't work into our schedules.  So the 'SoCal' passes works perfectly for us.

One reason we love Disneyland is that it holds a lot of wonderful childhood memories for both of us. Growing up in Southern California. Disneyland is usually an annual vacation spot for many families  from Los Angeles to San Diego and perhaps even cities north of Los Angeles although that usually involves an overnight stay.  As a child my family would plan at least one or two trips to Disneyland every year.  Each visit was the highlight of the season.  These trips usually happened around my birthday in July and around the Christmas season to be able to enjoy the beauty of the holiday decorations. Every visit was truely magical. 

As I grew up these trips to the magic kingdom became less frequent and as I reached my teens the visits would start to include a friend or two. When my friends and I reached driving age and acquired our licenses, we would go more frequently and usually stay till the park closed around midnight or just after. My wife had similar experiences growing up with her friends and family. Which is why one of the first big dates we had was a Disneyland. 

It was because of our mutual love and admiration for the park that "all started by a mouse" that I chose to propose to her during our first big date. It was a crazy weekend since it was 1) in the summer of 2008 when there was a heat wave and 2) a 5.4 earthquake happened that shut down all attractions for about 4-6 hours during our second of three days at the parks. Nothing was damaged in the quake but it made people shop more. We made the best of it and had a great time despite the strangeness of the weekend.

As I reached my early thirties and started to explore and try to understand my transgender status; Disneyland was one of those places that I felt completely comfortable to be me at. During 2003 to 2004 I visited the park about a dozen times or more and each time was better than the one before and I really started feeling better in my own skin.

Now that I've come out as transgender, Disneyland is much more a place I love to be. It holds so many wonderful memories for me. I feel so free there. 

So here are some recent pictures of my lovely wife Rebecca and I at Disneyland. For us it truely is the happiest place on earth. 

Thanks for reading!

Almost two months…

So as I lay in bed trying to turn off my brain I realize that it's been almost two months since I came out.

Here is a picture from the counter on my phone. 

It's crazy to think about and now that I am I can say that every day has been a bit easier than the day before it. Some days are a stand still but most have been a progress forward. 

Today my wife and I bought some high quality walking shoes because we want to treat our feet right and do some more walking in general to get/stay in shape. 

Now I didn't do a lot today in regards to makeup or anything. So I was really in that "Is he a she? Or is she a he?" phase. 

As I came out to the sales girl she said she had some family that was trans which made me feel very comfortable. I didn't ask her for any more information as it wasn't the time or place. What I should have done is given her my email or something, but hindsite is 20/20. 

Overall it was a awesome day. 

Now goodnight. 😃😉👍💋

First Things First ...

Hello Everyone!

First:
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know there are a lot of blogs out there especially one's pertaining to transgender people and/or issues.

Second:
This blog is going to be a place for me to express/vent whatever may be on my mind.  Positive experiences ... negative experiences ... and everything in-between.

I guess since this is the first post I should introduce myself to everyone out there.

I'm in my early forties and I came out to myself in August 2013, then came out to my wife in September 2013. Coming out to myself was a challenging and amazing thing.  It happened one night as I was starting to fall asleep.  I realized that I wasn't getting any older and thoughts of transition have been running in and out of my brain since I was a teen in some form or another.  Some of the thoughts I had growing up range from a strong desire to transition to a small almost non-desire to transition.  Basically I went from thinking that I was a full transsexual to just a closet cross dresser.  It was a rough journey trying to figure out how my gender fit into my life and society.

Coming out to my wife was a bit of a challenge, but she is an open minded individual that it really only took her a few weeks to wrap her head around the thought.  Don't get me wrong she had some ups and downs about it, but in the end she has been 100% supportive and encouraging and I know I could not do this without her love and support.

In February/March 2013 I came out to my family and very close friends via a letter.  Not an email. Not a Facebook note or post but an actual physical letter delivered by the USPS.  It was weird to print out and sign all of them but it was a very therapeutic experience and I would not give anything to change it.  The response was overall supportive with only a few (about 4%) of my family/friends not understanding or "getting" it.  To them I wish them well with no anger or remorse.  They need to live their lives and I need to live mine.

On April 2, 2013 I posted a video on Facebook coming out to the rest of my friends.  Here is that video.


Thanks again for reading/watching!
Catch you at the next post!

Hugs
Sabrina